Going out, Course & An embarrassing subject.

I know it has been a long time since I wrote a blog, well it feels like it has been a long time mind you I have been all over the place a bit lately it seems to be just one thing after another, I am not going to complain though because I have been feeling a lot more positive. Okay so here are some of the things that have been going on with me at the moment;


As you all know I was given double the dosage of my tablets at first it was a nightmare I felt dizzy, tired, sick and fed up it was horrible I wanted to stop taking the tablets but my Mum urged me to continue taking them and I did, it was worth a shot I mean I couldn't possibly feel any worse and I was still going to have my anxiety either way so I stuck with it and I am glad I did. For all of you out there who feel worried about taking new tablets and the side effects stick with it because the outcome is worth the first few weeks of sickness or extra anxiety or whatever. 


Ok girls this is a bit of an embarrassing subject but I find that my anxiety goes through the roof when I get my PMT right before my period, does anyone else find this? If you do please let me know! Well surprisingly this month I haven't had that at all I feel pretty ok which has surprised me and my Mum. So any of the girls reading this who have the same problem I urge you to please see your doctor I know how awful it was for me and the improvement in 3 weeks is amazing.


My course material arrived in the post yesterday I had to do a case study as a kind of test to see if I am suitable for the course I am very nervous but I have completed it and am quite pleased with my work. 


I told my Mum I needed her to post it for me and she suggested that I post it myself so we got in the car to pick my dad up from work. My dad works in the town centre so I always get kind of nervous heading into town because it is usually crowded and the roads are busy, today was no exception there was a lot of traffic because everyone was heading home from work and school. I felt a wave of anxiety come over me and somehow I managed to fight it off, the anxiety just left and I knew I could do it. I even got brave enough and walked to my Dad's work from the car park on my own, I stood in the waiting room for a while waiting for him to finish and he was so shocked to see me there it was such a great feeling!


We got back to the car and I felt strong so on the way home when my parents stopped at the green grocers for some fruit and veg I decided to go into the shop with them and again I was ok. I wont say that I wasn't nervous or worried but I managed to keep myself composed which was amazing to me. 


We live right by a shop and pharmacy and there is a post box outside so we stopped off on the way home so I could post my letter I even popped into the corner shop to buy myself some sweets and a bottle of water my Mam and Dad were really proud of me because I even struck up a conversation with the woman who works in the shop they said it was nice to see me being so social.


Anyway, I have just had my tea and I am watching some television now so I just wanted to let everyone know what I had done, I think my friend Lisa is coming to spend the night with me too which will be nice, feel free to comment or whatever :)

Emma 
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